Just a moment of love , ♥

#!. 0000082527122009 .

Thursday, September 3 ♥

♥ Not worthy . Im an No-body , (:

Readers on Earth . Neutral daye indeed . Happeninqs of qood & bad thinqs in all . (:

Terribly sick .

- Sorethroat , Couqh , Fever qoinq up & down , Flu , Headache , Bodyache , Giddy-ness & Body would qoo numb at times . D:

Mommy say she qoinq to brinq me consult a doctor already if all this carries on .

Wokeup quite early this morninq , couldn't sleep due to th couqhinq .

Made breakfast for myself & watched taiwan drama to keep myself entertained .

Around one , Daddy asked me to qoo work with him . He say , to let me sweat .

Out with him & to workinq place , Houqanq .

If i knew i was qoinq soo far away from home , i won't be qoinq . Really .

Almost vomited in car , dislike th smell of aircon . Prefers th wind much more .

Received Ahboy's text tellinq me somethinq . Ima sorry for wastinq your time , ):

Daddy qoinq other places to buy stuffs & left me with Ahpeh ad workinq place .

Done my job , went downstair brouqht myself lunch & Ahpeh coffee .

Came up to pass Ahpeh his coffee & i went down sittinq alone ad coffeeshop for my lunch .

Was tryinq to waste time as i've finished my job already .

Called KaiJie & walkinq around Houqanq with his introduction . He keepon naq me back to workinq place , scared i qot lost somehow .

After arquinq with him for quite sometimes , went back still .

Find thinqs to do & KaiJie called me back pei me chatted while i was busy workinq .

Chatted till my phone went flat . Nice one , (:

Sweep th floor , daddy teached me how to buildup a electric circuit for th main power .

Ahpeh wanted to qive me an ipod . Happy zhezhonq , (:

Hope he really did qive uh . Then , i would have an ipod already , noo fuss of havinq noo sonqs even if my phone went flat or somethinq like this .

Daddy said that , my phone came already . Super happy zhezhonq .

But , he had noo time to qo qet it todaye . He would qet it tomorrow instead . (:

Reached home at around 7.50pm due to traffic jam . D:

Watched Paris & Milan . My head is in real pain now , ima qonna sleep early toniqht .

As for tomorrow , i hope all of us have a pleasant day .

It's William birddaye ! :DD I hope everythinq qoes fine , i hope .

Please , let my health qrow abit better uh , (:

I always think for myself , I didn't think for others .

I never once tried to accept another person in an relationship , even if ima in one myself .

Im still stuck in the past , It had been qoinq 6months already yet it still stay afresh .

I was browsinq my past photos in my desktop just now , i saw photos of him & us .

Suddenly , i miss him alotalot . I really do .

He could put down everythinq & start afresh already . Why can't I ?

I wasted alot of other people time .

I just doesn't appreciated what th others did for me . Not even alit touched .

I understand , I musn't rely on others . I must be on myself now . Ima alone .

Not everyone would be there for me always . I must learn & look forward not stuck in th past .

I need to learn to put him down , bury everythinq down to th bottom of my heart .

I've been tellinq myself this since th day we brokenup till now , i never suceed .

At times , I really feel that I could just die off . Useless freak , simple job , why can't you ?

Gettinq over him , it just soo hard . D:

Hais , time would heal everyone would say . How lonq ?

Up till now , it qonna be half a year soon . How much time more , ? Could anyone tell me ?!

Ima stuck , really stuck . Stuck in my own feelinqs , own world .

If only , everythinqs would still th same , if only .

I can't pretend anymore . I can't hide my feelinqs anymore .

For th past six months , i've been pretendinq and hidinq , afraidinq of qettinq hurt aqain .

Ima tired . If only , thinqs were still th same ..

Labels: I can't pretend, I want everythinq to end .

♥ 我爱你 .
@ 8:30:00 PM