I still mind alot alot .
Maybe I should just kan kai yi dian lur . (:
Venuss , don't mind too much okays .

I hope she'll be fine . Can fight with th virus that is conquering in her body . (:

Missing baby now , seriously , miss him alot . and ofcourse , he confirm will says standard one . (:
having bad headache now , sorry baby , just now abit out of myself before yous left . was having a bad headache and felt that I shouldn't be soo xiao xin yan ehs . but , ima okays now already . only still having headache . (:

This is the first time my mommy and daddy soo support me having a relationship .
With baby's around . Everything soo fine . (:

Labels: Jiayous

爱总是什么都见意最后什么都原谅 .

I feel like punching myself hard right in my face . I've done alot of bad things recently that led to alot of consequences . All this things will be deeply kept in my heart as a reminder . A reminder of not going to let this kind of thing happened for the second time . Once is already enough .

I felt soo grateful that iris and baby are soo forgiving towards me . All those thing have a great impact on all of us , although baby and iris have already forgive me , not angry with me , but everything is not going to be the same , ima really glad that they have forgiven me , willing to accept me again , but , I still didn't managed to forgive myself . I want to do something to benefit them , to try hard using my action to proof to them that ima worth for their trust .
I really appreciate that they given me their understanding . I hope I can really managed to turn the situation to be back normal .
Venuss , don't be such a bitch anymore . It's time to do what your heart tells yous to do .
Faceup with everything , and not hideaway .
You're on your own now to gain back and do whatever yous can . do it to the fullest , and let everyone see .

baby , ima gonna last with yous . I don't care how negative people look at me . I know what's important to me , I wanna because of this important work hard . I meant it . Please don't give up on me .

Labels: Bitch me .

Was out with baby th whole day , just got home .
baby's still on the way home now , becareful okays . (:

Was up early in the morning , due to not in the mood for school , didn't went .
There's maths today and I didn't want to lose my temper in school again . Went ntuc with baby after he came fetch me outside my house . Shopped for ingredients for breakfast. !

I just love having grocery shopping with baby , soo fun . ;D
Went baby's house , he made breakfast for me . Thanks baby , soo sweet of yous , yous know . Watched la bi xiao xin while he making and we eating .
Went to sleep after breakfast , wokeup at 3plus , tired .
Watched teevee with baby's sister and chatted while waiting for baby to wakeup . Actually , going to meetup with ahgor , but in the end too late already .
Baby wokeup at 6.30pm . Talked talked till baby's mommy back . Had our dinner , slacked awhile and walked home .
Left when baby's father just came back home , timing soo not good . haha .
stroll back home with baby , watched teevee again . Aftermath , went watching stars with baby . :-)

Thankthank baby for making my day today .
Lovedieeyous .
One more day to third month , shall post something special for baby tml . (:

Extrordinary life , is not what I want to have .
I just want to have a simple peaceful life . That's all .
My life have been getting more and more exciting eachday . Problems follow by problems , simply meaning to says , bad things have been revolting around my life .

I've broken someone's trust towards me . This is the first time I felt soo wrong before in my entire life . Totally lost , what I know is just cry out loud and squat down .

In school today , misslee says that I couldn't deal with stressness , it's indeed very true . I admit .
I always tends to hide away , rather bury everything deep down before me rather than just accept the fact , face the reality .
Coward .

Now , im home . It's perfectly nice environment for me now due to robin and my parents aren't home .
No more accusing , fighting , quarreling , nagging and scolding . Im really very tired . I needed a break , but failed to have one .
Suddenly , I felt that my eyelids are heavy , it's falling ..
i still have not complete my assignments and dnt . Sigh .

Baby went home already , he's feeling very very tired I guess .
i hope he doesn't fall sick and will sleep well and sweet tonight .
He seriously had enough for today , a tough day for him . baby , a rest for yous too .

Things always tends to affect my mood very strongly . I just feel that myself became absolute terrible .
I guess , I shall go take a short sleep first , im tired .
staying awake will just makes me think even more .
update next time .

Labels: Bye life

Since young , everyone is telling me that family is the one that you'll always turned to , your home is the one that would be given yous comfort and love , is the place that yous can rest and relax .
But , why I don't feel that all these are true . Instead of peace and happiness , ima feeling more stressed up ever .
I always thought that by using communication , it would helps me improve my relationship with my family . But , today , all things just proof me wrong . D:

I just don't understand why my parents like to accuse me for things that I have not done , even when they find out that they was wrong , they never once asked about how I felt and comfort me .
I always tends to try my best to fulfill whatever shit they asked me to . But , they're just never satisfied and glad with it .
Sometimes , I just wondered , am I still not doing things right or am I just not good enough ..

I know , I aren't good in my studies . So , they're not satisfied with my studies , it's okay .
they're not satisfied with my actions and doings .
or , is it not satisfied with me .
I really don't knw what I can do to improve the situation .
Whenever ima homed , my father tends to just give me his a piece of advice and a black face , why can't he just smile at me and ask me how's my day outside . sigh .

Im sorry for posting all this nonsense here , I just need someone to talk to , somewhere to vent my anger .
I really dowan my baby to worry about me soo much , he's already very worry about me recently .
I dowan to affect his mood . Although , I really needs his hug right now .
I feel like just crying like nobody's business . Ima defeated . Its really makes me not wanna go home . wanna stay out . wanna them let go of me .

Ima going insane soon ..

Baby's with me now . Superb happy . :D
Currently at bball court with my two brothers , iris , jer , baby andand rj .
It's been a long time since everyone gather together . (:
I like to see baby smiling like now . Even if , I'm just aside sitting , looking at him smiling . It simplys cheers my up and brighten up my day . (:
baby , I don't like to see yous frown .

Just now , ran across the road to avoid the incoming car . Hurt my leg again , D:
baby just piggyback me here . Thanks for your caring ohs .
Andand , iris , cheerup okay ! I believe that your choice is akways the best for yourself . Do just what you want to do . You will have my support , (:
I wanna take photo with my precious weijian . D:
shall seize any chance , if not he kept on forget .
I hope every night will be like this , full of stars .
Baby , wo zhen de ai Shang lers . (:

although , sometimes i'll feel that yous didn't care for me . But , I know , yous sometimes just don't like to talk much . I knw too , at times I'll tends to be more talkative .
Baby , I want to be there for you always . Accompany yous noo matter what yous do .
Seeing you soo happily playing bball , really makes me smile .
I hope you'll be happy when being with me .
Iloveyous . :D

Sneeze is killing me .
I've been sneezing for like two days . It just get more worst each day .
Baby and jer had already left for their activities later on . Iris's with me now .
This few days , I've been caught up with emotional outbreak , I've been wondering what's the reason for it . Poor baby , have been bearing with mr for a few days already . I'm feeling very very guilty about it .

Baby , I'm sorry for treating you'd like this recently . I know I've been giving you'd attitude for like small lit things or even just nothing . Thanks for bearing with me this few days . I know , I hasn't been a great girlfriend since then . Perhaps , i'm abit stress up recently and was feeling not really well this few days . But , I don't know what's the real reason . I promise yous , I'll change back to the normal me asap . If you'd really couldn't bear with me , just scold me okay . Let mr know I'm doing the wrong thing .

I did some tarot reading using iris's iPhone just now .
Super accurate , I can says .
It says , frankly speaking , matters of heart leave you rather indifferent today . Something's given you the last straw and now you simply want to shut your eyes and redraw for awhile .
That's really describe how I'm feeling now . Towards studies . D:
I just don't know what's in me . Baby , can yous feel how Ima feeling right now ? And perhaps , guide me through and tell me what im gonna do next .

I shall return iris's iPhone back to her as I'm about done posting . It's simply makes me feel alot better . My head still hurts , I'm still sneezing . Should off to bed already . There's still school tomorrow . Siann-sation. ! D:

Bye .

Indeed , Monday Phobias again . I always failed to runaway from this phobia . D:

Was almost almost late for school . One more step behind and ima late . Heng ..
At first , I thought I was heng . But soon after , I realised I was absolutely wrong . I forgot to bring my dnt file. !
Maths indeed , noo hao ri zi for me . I've already being very guai kid , what more she wants still .
My eyelid closing , I shall continue this whn ima free again . Nights !

Updated via phone .

Owl again , fcuk my bed , fcuk my mental , fcuk my brain .
Where th hell went wrong. ?! Why am I still up at this hour when ima suppose to sleep . For goodness sake , ima very pissed . arghh .

Baby's currently outside toning again . Yous know what , I rather he stay home msn than being out all night . D:
I just feel that he's been staying out late way too much , and seriously , I damn dislike it . Still , I won't want to ever restrict his freedom noo matter how dislike ima going to get . I hope this baby of mines knows where's th line is .

Okay , back to me . Can anyone tell me what can I do whenever i've got sleepless night. ?
Sick and tired of waking up in th middle of th night and found yourself couldn't fall asleep aftermath . Shagg ..
For once , I wished I could be hypnotise to sleep .
It's 2.28am now , counting down to 6.30am .
Feeling uneasy , very .
Shall just stare up to th ceiling for hours tonight .

Labels: uneasy ., Vexed up

Boring , Boring , Boring .
Seriously speaking , can i change my work schedule to weekends instead .
Im soo free during weekends nowadays , as baby working .
Rotting home today , wasting my time . Maybe , i shall just study abit and make used of my time . Perhaps , being like this would ust get abit more knowledge in my brain .
Tomorrow's school . I hope it's something not worst for me , i had just made th decision of stop having Monday's phobia . Please , let me enjoy Monday .
Going to be a tiring one day tomorrow again , packed with activties . Rushing and Rushing .
As usual , working after school . Stay strong for my Sony Satio . (:


Wondered what my baby doing now . He didnt replied me , D:
Shall continue to wait for his text , (:
Wenchin came this afternoon , i was still sleeping . My beauty sleep gone again . D:
but , had a great chat with her , chatted about studies , Nicholas and Weijian .
Exchanged opinion on ite and polys .
Both of us have the same thinking of just going into Ite . Nothing wrong with that lur .
Stressed year , result still doesnt seems to be improving . Guess , i should just put in more effort , spend more time studying .
Hope from next week onwards , i wont be waking up in the middle of night , couldn't sleep and started to read through my books again . Tired of being an owl . It seriously worsen my eyebag condition . Arghh . D:
Yeshs , Baby replied me. ! ;D
Hungry again , should go grabbed something to eat . Byes .

Labels: Just it .

Labels: No Regrets .

Labels: baby /, rescue me

Hehs , Currently sitting beside my lovelove with him hugging me . (:
He seems like going to bored and sleep liaos , still at ther says no such thing . LOL .
Lovehim lots lahs , ;D Haha .
Recently , my everyday involve him . ;DDDDDD
Thats all , with him soo fun . Haha , purely just feeling very th :D

Sorry for all those people who worried about me , things went on fine already .
Nothing much happened actually , ;D
Thanks for all those care and concern . Hehs .
Now , i wanna pei my lovelove . Blog next time . BYEEEEEEEEEE , ;D

Labels: LOVE HIM LAHS .

SORRY , PARDON ME .
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Im terrified , who theres for me .
Very terrified , how long can i act that im strong .
i still can see th scenario , the images and all . What if , really ..
Its only a moment away , and i may be gone just like this .
Very thanks to this stranger that helped me .
If not for him , i really dont knw what might had happened to me .
It a pity i dont knw his name . If i ever met him again , i would try my best to help him in any ways . Thanks stranger .