Since young , everyone is telling me that family is the one that you'll always turned to , your home is the one that would be given yous comfort and love , is the place that yous can rest and relax .
But , why I don't feel that all these are true . Instead of peace and happiness , ima feeling more stressed up ever .
I always thought that by using communication , it would helps me improve my relationship with my family . But , today , all things just proof me wrong . D:

I just don't understand why my parents like to accuse me for things that I have not done , even when they find out that they was wrong , they never once asked about how I felt and comfort me .
I always tends to try my best to fulfill whatever shit they asked me to . But , they're just never satisfied and glad with it .
Sometimes , I just wondered , am I still not doing things right or am I just not good enough ..

I know , I aren't good in my studies . So , they're not satisfied with my studies , it's okay .
they're not satisfied with my actions and doings .
or , is it not satisfied with me .
I really don't knw what I can do to improve the situation .
Whenever ima homed , my father tends to just give me his a piece of advice and a black face , why can't he just smile at me and ask me how's my day outside . sigh .

Im sorry for posting all this nonsense here , I just need someone to talk to , somewhere to vent my anger .
I really dowan my baby to worry about me soo much , he's already very worry about me recently .
I dowan to affect his mood . Although , I really needs his hug right now .
I feel like just crying like nobody's business . Ima defeated . Its really makes me not wanna go home . wanna stay out . wanna them let go of me .

Ima going insane soon ..